I Could've Done Better

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I Could've Done Better 

I could've done better 

Doesn’t matter now 

The love in tow disappears 

In the shear of the river 

On a row boat 

Gone afloat on its own 

All alone and empty  

Like me 

Disappeared  

Two  

To become one 

With the sea 

Until it's none 

And not even the sun can account 

For what ultimately  

Intimately amounts to naught 

To wrought what 

Just cannot 

Was not 

Meant to be 

Chay 2018 

All My Heroes Are Dead

Michael said
There's no White Light and he's not through
So say you
Gone
Song buried gone
Lost with
Chris
Who was Just Like Suicide
10 years held my hand afterwith
My wife and I
Decided to live and let die
Sigh
Deal with black crows that fly
and let me know just how alone
I actually am
Flown I'm grown
But because you gone
I can't call you
Up on the phone
I'm the last of us
I cant I wont
Remake us
Because we unfulfilled
We failed we fled
You gone you dead
Instead
You left us
You left me man
I stand in the middle
of nowhere
Looking like you
Unable to face
Your people
I'm you but I'm not
I'm better but I'm the same
I'm sane but i can't explain
The pain you gave
The slave i am
To the begging of more of you
Owe me
You don't know me
You never did
and now you gone
All of you
But just like always
I'm on my own

chay 2018